In keeping with your request to send "my favorite photo," I've attached two pics.
The first one (left) is my favorite because it was taken a day after I was fitted with my hair. Up until that point I was not yet "me.” I did not yet know "who" I was. This was the third wig that was placed on my head and when it was, I felt as if I'd just been born again. Another couple who were standing nearby watching along with my ex-wife immediately said "That's You!" And I too knew immediately that it was.
And to this day I still maintain the same hairstyle and color because I can't imagine wanting to see myself any other way ― to do so would seem like I've abandoned that part of me that I so deeply wanted to find. The known and unknown feminine feelings and desires that I possessed finally came to rest and settled within my soul. I consider that day, March 15th, my feminine birthday.
This photo was taken at the fashion show at the Texas T Party in Dallas (1997) the very next day and I'm modeling a Jim Bridges panne velvet lycra dress that I, of course, had to buy, which I still have and still love to wear. To say that I was happy would be an understatement. Although I had begun to go out en femme, I was still finding my way, still maintaining a low profile, still unsure of myself. After this, and the joy of truly feeling wonderful and to stand on stage in front of so many people, the foundation of confidence for being a woman, for being myself in public was formed.
Although I'm content to and usually do blend in, it's not important to me that I'm "read" as this presents an opportunity to talk about our community. I'm a confident, self-assured, sophisticated and dignified woman and I love demonstrating that! No one can take that away from me. No one can take that away from any of us, unless you let them.
The second photo was taken at the Texas T party fashion show the following year. And once again I couldn't be happier!
In response to my open invitation to send your favorite photo along with the story behind it and the reason it is your favorite photo, I received a lot of photos and stories that I am posting in the the order I received them. My invitation still stands, so don't be shy, send me your photos!
Wearing Light in the Box.
Actor Charles Hawtrey.