Thursday, April 18, 2019

High School Reunion

My high school class is celebrating its 50th anniversary the year with a reunion in June. I attended my law school reunion as a woman in 2012. I had a fabulous time and would like to attend my high school reunion as a woman, too, but I am hesitant about doing so.

I have no qualms about facing my classmates as a woman. I am hesitant because I worry about embarrassing my wife and sister. Both attended my high school one year behind me. People in my class know people in their class and you know how people like to talk.

The reunion is in early June, so I have time to decide. I know what I want to do, but I don't know what to do.

Source: Beyond the Rack
Wearing Seeya (Source: Beyond the Rack)

Ready for my law school reunion, June 2012
Ready for my law school reunion, June 2012

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Shaving Legs

Good Morning Stana, 

Hope you're well and it is finally getting warm back East. 

Question??? At what age did you start to shave your legs? Did parents catch on? Smooth skin was a big revelation for me. Stockings on smooth legs is just a wonderful look and feel. Once you shave you can't go back. I had to wait till I moved out and after the Army.

Have a great Day



Hi Bobbie,

Spring is finally springing forth in Southern New England. The daffodils and forsythia are in bloom and the snow piles have finally disappeared.

I was about 16 years old when I shaved my legs for the first time.

I had been crossdressing for about 4 years. Leg hair began sprouting about Year 2. By Year 4, I could not stand the look of matted hair under my nylon stockings, so I took a razor to my legs and removed all the hair from the hem of my miniskirt to the tips of my toes. And I continued to regularly remove my leg hair ever since.

My parents never mentioned it. My crossdressing was closeted, so they never saw my shaved legs en femme and I avoided wearing shorts en homme in the warm weather because I did not want to reveal my secret. When I first appeared among the civilians en femme for Halloween in Year 6, my shaved legs were probably the least of my parent's worries when they saw their 18-year-old son dressed like their 16-year-old daughter.

The first time anyone ever mentioned my shaved legs was when I attended a Halloween party in office girl drag in my mid-20's and the hostess was so surprised that I shaved my legs that she announced it loudly for all the party-goers to hear. I didn't care because earlier at that same party, a female party-goer asked who was the woman not wearing a costume! (She was me!)

Thank you for the great questions, Bobbie.

Source: Etienne Aigner
Wearing Etienne Aigner (Source: Etienne Aigner)

Julian Eltinge
Early 20th Century professional femulator of stage and screen, Julian Eltinge.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Becoming Sheila

Femulate reader Peter suggested this "very nice video featuring the famous Sheila Wolf." I agree it is a very nice video and I hope you will enjoy it as much as I did.

Source: Boston Proper
Wearing Boston Proper (Source: Boston Proper)

Christian Clavier
Christian Clavier femulates in the 1982 French film Le père noël est une ordure.

Monday, April 15, 2019

T Lives Conference Almost Here

Next weekend is a big holiday weekend, so the weekend following it might get lost in the shuffle. The Transgender Lives Conference is on the Saturday after the Easter/Passover weekend, so I wanted to remind anyone considering attending that the Conference is fast approaching.

The Conference attracts attendees from all over the Northeast and is the biggest conference of its kind in this neck of the woods. If you can make it to the Conference, you will be rewarded with a very fulfilling day.

This link 🔗 provides all you need to know about the conference which runs all day Saturday at the UConn Health Center in Farmington, Connecticut. My presentation "Out Among the Civilians" runs for an hour between 1 and 2 PM.

I hope I will see you there!

Source: Unique Vintage
Wearing Unique Vintage (Source: Unique Vintage)

Jack Haley
Jack Haley (right) femulated in a lost scene from the 1945 film George White Scandals.

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Quotes from Supreme Court Justices

"The liberties of none are safe unless the liberties of all are protected."  William O. Douglass

"When we lose the right to be different, we lose the privilege to be free." – Charles Evan Hughes

"In recognizing the humanity of our fellow beings, we pay ourselves the highest tribute." ­ Thurgood Marshall

"I like beer. I really like beer."  Brett Kavanaugh

Saturday, April 13, 2019

Friday, April 12, 2019

Shoe Shopping

My latest Amazon purchase: Nine West "Epiphany" slingback pumps for $39.99
I love my shoes.

Shoes are the last item I don when I get dressed. And when I slip on my high heel pumps, it's as if my fairy godmother waves her magic wand and I suddenly feel absolutely marvelous.

I own a lot of shoes. My favorite brands are Payless and Nine West. Both have shoes in my size (12). Although Payless shoes are less expensive than Nine West shoes, Nine West's are better quality and usually real leather.

Payless will be history soon, so that leaves me with Nine West.

The local Nine West brick and mortar store never has size 12s, so I order online. Nine West prices being what they are, I only order when they have a sale. Even then their prices are typically higher than Payless normal prices, but what's a poor girl to do?

"Go to Amazon," is what a poor girl should do.

I recently discovered that Amazon has lots of Nine West shoes for sale at very attractive prices. Unless I missed something (which is possible because I often miss something), this is a recent development because when I looked for Nine West shoes on the "Big A" in the recent past, there was only a small selection.

The only catch is that the Nine West shoes on Amazon do not necessarily match what is currently available on the Nine West website. The Amazon selection is older than what you will find on Nine West online or in their brick and mortar stores, but that is OK by me. The savings, quality and real leather make up for it.

Source: Nine West
Wearing Nine West (Source: Nine West)

Brian Deacon
Brian Deacon femulates in the 1973 British film The Triple Echo.

Thursday, April 11, 2019


Most mornings, I awake with no memory of my latest trip to Dreamland. On the other hand, approximately one in ten mornings, I do recall my latest trip and I estimate that in half my trips, I am male me and in the other half, I am female me.

My female me trips can be divided in two: either I dream that I am a woman or I dream I am femulating.

Last night, I dreamed I was femulating and it was extraordinary on two counts.

Usually my dreams include family and friends, both alive and deceased, but last night, my dream was populated by strangers.

Secondly, let night I dreamed I was getting ready to be a bridesmaid in someone's wedding. I never dreamed about being in a wedding party before, so it was nice to experience a dream with a different plot.

Two distinct memories from my bridesmaid dream: I was frantic about my wig – no matter what I did, I could not style it satisfactorily. Also I recall being upset because it  took so long to prepare for the wedding that whiskers began popping through my makeup! With that, the dream ended.

And so it goes!

Source: Intermix
Wearing Ganni (Source: Intermix)

Alan Cumming
Alan Cumming (in blue evening gown) femulates in the British television series The Runaway.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Battery Day

Lately, the batteries in my iPhone and MacBook Pro have been discharging rapidly. The iPhone is over five years old and the MacBook is over six years old, so I figured it was time to replace their original batteries.

Amazon sells replacement battery kits for $15 and $50 respectively. Both kits include all the tools required for the task.

I viewed how-to videos on YouTube. The only difficult part of the tasks seemed to be removing the old batteries, which were attached to the iPhone and MacBook cases with a two-sided tape-like adhesive. In the past, I've handled worse do-it-yourself computer tasks successfully, so I ordered the batteries from Amazon.

Saturday was Battery Day.

The iPhone battery replacement was not too bad. Working with the tiny screws with my 68-year-old eyes was the most difficult part of the task.

Removing the two-sided tape was a little tricky. You are supposed to grab the tape at one end of the battery and pull it out from under the battery, but the tape kept ripping in my fingers tips. I finally used a needle nose plier to get a good grip on the tape and pulled it out.

The job took about 30 minutes from start to finish and was a success. The iPhone is now like new with regard to its battery discharge rate.

The MacBook Pro battery replacement was easier than I expected because the glue holding the battery to the computer case had dried out over the past six years and it did not take much prying with a small chisel to free the battery. It took about 45 minutes to do the job and like the iPhone, the MacBook Pro's battery discharge rate is like new now.

I would have completed the MacBook battery replacement more quickly except that I had a big surprise when I opened the case: dust all over the interior of the computer including large dustballs, as you can see in the photo above. It took an extra 10 to 15 minutes to remove all the dust before I screwed the cover back on to the MacBook case.

I was very pleased with the results. Besides saving money, I also saved time by avoiding a visit to the Apple store.

Source: Cellfina
Being read in a good way! (Source: Cellfina)

The Bigwood Twins
The Bigwood Twins, early 20th Century professional femulators

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Tower Envy

In my previous post, Ann Onymous left the following comment:
Here's my two part question, Stana. 
1. Do you think that had you from the get-go in life been allowed to live as a girl/woman you would have developed an interest in HAM radio? 
2. Had you been born with an XY [sic] chromosome body do you think you'd have developed that interest? 
I'm not trying to be provocative, I've always been curious about traditionally male/female activities and how those intersect with gender identity.
My interest in radio was sparked by two things.

👧   My childhood home was located in the shadow of the towers of AM radio station WATR. The towers were an imposing presence in my early life; so much so that I wanted my own radio tower.

👧   My parents gifted me a Remco AM radio kit for Christmas when I was about 10-years-old. Living so close to WATR, its signal swamped my Remco radio and it was the only station I could hear. However, I discovered that WATR went off the air early Sunday mornings for maintenance and I could hear other stations on my Remco. Thus began my interest in receiving distant radio stations (DX).

If I lived as a girl or had been born a girl, I guess that instead of a radio kit, my parents would have given me a makeup kit, as well as dolls, toy kitchen appliances, etc., that is, gifts like my sister received. (For what it's worth, I played with my sister's "girls'" toys almost as often as I played with my own toys.)

My sister, my only sibling who was 18 months my junior, was not fascinated by the imposing radio towers located on the next block. If I lived as a girl or had been born a girl, would I be disinterested in those towers, too?

Was my interest in those towers a "guy thing"?

Or since I was so naturally feminine, was it penis envy?

(Some food for thought, but I don't think I answered Ann's questions!)

Source: Moda Operandi
Wearing Leal Daccarett (Source: Moda Operandi)

Oslo Gay Men's Chorus
Members of the Oslo gay mens chorus (Oslo fagottkor) femulating for a Mad Men parody.

Monday, April 8, 2019

Dumb Blond

Staffing the booth at Hamvention the past eight years, I got a taste of the prejudices that professional woman face every day.

Approximately 15% of the US ham population are female and the attendees at Hamvention reflected that statistic. By far, the males outnumber females.

The people staffing the booths at Hamvention also reflected that statistic. Some booths have no females, some booths have one or two females and a few booths have professional "booth babes" hired to attract customers.

Some visitors to our booth must have read me as the equivalent of a booth babe. On a few occasions, fellows approached me at the booth and asked, "Do you know anything?" or "Can I talk to someone who knows something?" or something similarly insulting.

Damn! I probably know more about ham radio than they do. I've been a ham for nearly 50 years. I have written six books and thousands of articles about ham radio. I even won a special achievement award for my contributions to the hobby.

Usually, I am so taken aback by the question/insult that I do not have a quick comeback. Instead, I do my duty and try to help them out.

Source: Boston Proper
Wearing Boston Proper (Source: Boston Proper)

The Three Stooges
Moe Howard, Larry Fine and Shemp Howard (The Three Stooges) femulate in the 1950 film Self Made Maids.

Friday, April 5, 2019


I am an overdresser.

There ― I admitted it. I got it off my chest and now I don't have to worry about people accusing me of being an "overdresser" because I have come out to the world about it.

It is hard to overdress when you attend a trans support group meeting; many of the attendees overdress because the meeting may be their only opportunity to dress at all, so they dress to kill.

That being said, when I attended trans support group meetings, I was usually the most overdressed girl at the meeting. Hands down. No question about it.

I carried on my overdressing when I began going out among civilians en femme. The woman in a cocktail dress and high heels shopping at Walmart ― that was me. The woman in the sequin evening gown seated in the centerfield bleachers at Fenway Park ― that was me. The woman in the little black dress and pearls dining at Taco Bell ― you guessed it ― that was me, too.

At first, I worried about it because overdressing drew attention to me and by drawing attention to me, civilians might scrutinize me too closely and figure out that I was packing something extra underneath my periwinkle bridesmaid gown.

I sure did not want to out myself, so I began toning it down. But I soon found out that toned-down dressing was Boring with a capital B!

Blending in with all the other babes at Home Depot was just not my thing. I wanted to be outstanding in my field in heels, not flats.

So, I began overdressing again and I have never looked back because in the words of blogger Kate Fridkis, "Being overdressed is fun. You have to pull it off with confidence. You have to walk with your shoulders back, like you planned it. Like you're dressed up because you live a dramatic, impressive life. I mean, why not? Maybe you do."

Ms. Fridkis' "The Art of Overdressing" on The Huffington Post inspired this post and I urge you to go read it yourself; maybe it will inspire you to buy a red strapless dress to wear to AutoZone.

Source: Rachel Zoe
Wearing Rachel Zoe (Source: Rachel Zoe)

Trevor Moore
Trevor Moore femulating on television's The Whitest Kids U' Know.