Thursday, November 7, 2013

Just Like Me

2013-10-26 I am feminine. This is not something I developed over the years --- I have been feminine all my life.

Being feminine came naturally to me. I did not intentionally choose to be feminine; I just acted naturally, but society categorized my natural act as feminine.

I did not have an inkling that I was feminine until an older boy told me I needed to stop acting like a girl and to man up for my own good. I rejected the boy's assessment and continued to act naturally and as a result, suffered the slings and arrows of my peers, who called me such names as sissy, twinkie, fairy, faggot, homo, etc.

And worse, I was so blind to my own femininity that when I saw it in other guys, I assumed that they were gay because that was the stereotype for gay males that I had learned.

As I grew older and wiser, I realized I was feminine and really a girl at heart. I also learned that my stereotype for gay males was wrong. Gay males can be (or appear to be) as masculine as heterosexual males. I also learned that heterosexual males can be feminine... just like me.

And I just came to the realization recently that the feminine male friends and acquaintances that over the years I branded as gay were not necessarily gay, but may have been transgender... just like me.

 

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Source: jkontumblr.tumblr.com

Professional femulator April CarriĆ³n.

 

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Source: Rent the Runway

Wearing Allison Parris.

3 comments:

  1. All three of today's photos warrant a WOW!

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  2. Indeed on the photos! As for the childhood experiences, I can say I had many similar ones - name calling, etc. The feminine "me" feels much more comfortable...

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  3. My life was exactly the same as yours, Stana! We merely traveled different paths. Good for you, girl!

    And BTW, the photos are lovely, especially the one of you!

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