Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Giving Thanks

w100_2030 At One Big Event Saturday night, I chatted with a friend who I had not seen in a long time. I brought her up to date about what I have been doing the past few years. In conclusion, I said, "I find my life very interesting."

She agreed wholeheartedly.

If you have been following along in my blog, I think you will agree with my conclusion, too.

My life is certainly not boring. I admit that those days when I have to be a boy are not as interesting as those days when I am a girl.

But even when I appear in boy mode, my heart and soul are in girl mode as I think about my latest adventures en femme or plot my next adventure en femme.

Would I wish things were different?

I tell everyone who asks that I would live as a girl 24/7 if I had not made commitments that prevent me from doing so. But I wonder if I did live as a girl 24/7, would my life be as interesting as it is now.

Who knows?

Maybe I will find out someday, maybe not, but in either case, thank God, I'm a transwoman!


  1. Stana,
    This was a beautiful post and quite apt for the day before Thanksgiving.
    I love this holiday. It is no pressure compared to some others and it does give us all an opportunity to think back as to how fortunate we are to be living in this great country.
    As "T" folks we also have a lot of reasons to be thankful. While some may feel trapped or may resent our gender gift I am truly grateful that I have been blessed with the ability to see different facets of the wonderful world that has been given to us.
    I agree that we should pause to Thank God for all of his blessings. While I took a hit from Sandy there are many who had it much worse. Lets keep them in our prayers and lets see what we can do to help those in need. It seems that the private sector has done much better than the government or the utility companies. I have been on the ground helping others and have given food, clothing and funds to some local groups that have been there to help the people most impacted by this storm.

  2. I too sometimes wonder is being a girl would be so much fun if I had too be one all the time, I know that I thoroughly enjoy my girl times, but then they are carefree times with no responsibilities or obligations. As I have matured I have come to accept who and what I am, to be thankful for the gift that has given me an almost unique insight and sympathy into other peoples situations.

  3. Dear Pat,

    Thank You for your compassion and help to people suffering the effects from Hurricane Sandy.

    Dear Stana,

    I also love being transgendered. I think of it as an "extra gift". I would not want to lose my feminine expression time. I'm OK being a guy at times, but I ADORE the times when I dress, make-up, and act as a woman. Since my wonderful "out amongst the civilians" experiences the last 2 or 3 years, I'm comfortable going out as a woman, as long as I use common sense in choosing where to go -- no biker bars, dark garages or alleys, or WAFFLE HOUSEs for this girl. LOL! But nice malls and stores, decent mid-level or above restaurants, museums, etc. are so much fun and emotionally satisfying to be a girl at. As you have often written, our 6-foot heights are not a problem, even when I wear 3" heels and you wear 4" heels.



  4. Stana-

    I'm finding that trans people who are out and about are likely to have had more interesting lives than the ones who are not out. Each time I go out, I'm meeting interesting people - many of them being curious and open to learning new things.....

  5. Stana

    I agree so much with what you wrote above. I feel exactly the same way.

    "But even when I appear in boy mode, my heart and soul are in girl mode"

    Yes this is me too Sister

    Happy Thanksgiving

  6. Thanks to you, Stana, for being such an inspiration to us all. Despite all of the mixed emotions and confusion that I've felt as a transgendered person, I absolutely love being a t-girl, and adore those moments when I'm dressed. I feel fortunate and thankful- that I was born a person open to this experience-because it offers joy and fulfillment unlike any other. You've helped me(and countless others) a great deal along the way-through your brave example! So thank you again-and Happy Thanksgiving!

  7. Thank you all for your kind words and for coming back to read what I write her.

    Gwen --- I appreciate you calling me "brave." It is a very nice thing to say, but I never feel brave about trying to be who I really am.