Sunday, August 24, 2008

a boy and his boobs

Yesterday, I was listening to a podcast by Ethan St. Pierre's "The Radicalguy" in which he interviewed Mila Pavlin.

During the interview, the Mila mentioned that as a young pre-op transwoman, she was mortified whenever she had to remove her top to go swimming or participate in other activities in which males were expected to go shirtless because in her mind, she was female and going topless was not something females did in public. During such occurrences, she would try to cover up with a towel in order to feel less embarrassed.

When I was young, I experienced something similar whenever I was expected to be shirtless because I have boobs. I don't know if my breast development was the result of being overweight, hormone imbalance, Gynecomastia, or a combination of some or all of the above. Whatever... I have boobs that nearly fill a B cup bra.

In my youth, my breasts embarrassed me; I would notice people checking out my breasts and occasionally, I would hear hurtful comments like "He should wear a bra?" As I grew older, I began avoiding situations where I had to go shirtless and as an adult, I am never in a public situation without a shirt.

On the other hand, I am very happy with natural breasts when I am en femme and I seldom have to wear anything in my bra to augment my bust. The only time I stuff my bra is when I wear a low-cut top or dress and want to display some cleavage (as in the accompanying photo). To achieve cleavage, I tape my breasts together, but by doing so, my bra cups are only half-filled, so I use stuffing to fill out the cups. But normally, the only thing in my bra is me.

Admittedly, my breasts are small for a woman my size, but they are all mine and they feel as natural as can be. And my breasts are no longer an embarrassment; they have become an asset.


  1. Thanks to the Olympics, neck-to-knee swimsuits on males are becoming more mainstream.

    If you don't want to hit the pool topless but a female suit is out, this place sells a complete coverage unisex suit with a full front lining option for support.

    The "grab bag" suits are a good deal, but you never know what print you'll end up with. I have one with a bright pink sorority logo down each side of the suit.

    Unisex and male suits are sold by waist size. Unlike Speedo, the number represents the *maximum* that the suit will accomodate; if in-between, move to the larger size.

  2. Roscoe --- Thank you for the information!

  3. well... a girl has to look good, and well formed breasts help all that... and all natural for a CDer...?
    Staci -- how she does all this......................................!

  4. Deborah --- Win some, lose some!

  5. I had wondered how you had gotten your breasts to look so natural and now I know. Have you ever done a breast cancer screen? Not just genetic girls get that you know.

  6. Lauralee --- I never had a breast cancer screening. Maybe I should.

  7. As a boy growing up in the middle 1950's I was like you, embarrassed by my breasts, they were big from the time I had a conscious thought about what was "normal". I did swim shirtless but hated the stares. I do know that I had what we know today as Gynecomastia in my left breast. I could feel the lump behind the puffy nipple. I found if I would press against it my nipple would harden and lesson the look, but it would soon pop out again and I'd try to hide. Today at 67 I love my breasts. I easily fill a B cup and although I never go shirtless I love knowing that in a bra, its all me!