Friday, January 30, 2009

I wish I was a girl

Last night, I watched My Name Is Earl on NBC. It was a rerun episode from 2008 titled "Joy in a Bubble."

I will not describe the plot because I was not paying much attention to the show. (I was reading with the television on in the background waiting for The Office and 30 Rock to come on.)

The show did get my attention when Earl's sons attended a young boy's birthday party. When it was time to blow out the candles on the birthday cake, the birthday boy wished aloud, "I wish I was a girl!"

It was the birthday boy's only appearance in the episode (he is not a continuing character in the series) and there was no trans theme in this episode. So, my guess it was a throwaway line intended to get a laugh from the audience, but I am sure it was not a joke to any trans-woman watching the show.

I don't believe I ever made a wish to be a girl when blowing out the candles of my birthday cake, but I do recall on more than one occasion going to bed and hoping I'd wake up female.


  1. Hah, funny that I would find this post only now. I saw this episode in rerun this evening and am posting my own blog about it, and about trans children. Glad you shared it!

  2. I don't think I ever made that wish when blowing out candles.. I wish I did.. Maybe it would have worked :/

  3. Wishes dont work, that's the problem with them.

  4. Blowing out candles? Yes.
    New years' wishes, every time.
    Several times I voiced it to my family when I was a small child even. It didn't matter.
    Sadly for me, a big part of losing my faith was linked to praying nightly to God to let me wake up as a girl, or go to sleep and wake up reborn a girl, and asking why I was born a boy.
    Prayers and wishes dan't work, no matter how many years you have them, nor how much conviction and belief in them you hold.
    Sorry to be such a Debbie-downer y'all.
    Now my physique is for too masculine to do anything about it and wrest satisfaction from it, even though I'm finally able to make that choice for myself.
    I just wish my family actually listened and sought help for me years ago, they had the means, they always just wrote it off.
    Now my girlfriend and I have switched gender roles and it helps us both, but its still dissatisfying for us, its still something where she tells me almost daily that she wishes we could trade bodies or something.
    I just needed an anon venting source.

  5. I've only realized that I was trans in the past couple months, but I've wished and prayed that I was a girl every night since I was like 5 or 6. once I reached middle school I gave up wishing and gave up believing, but now years have past and I know who I am and I'm not afraid to wish or to pray. I tell myself every hour "I am a woman, no matter what my mirror tells me". I love that part of me and I'm going to let it grow and blossom into something beautiful. Thank you random internet people for reminding me I'm not alone:)