Thursday, June 2, 2016

Marie's First Time

My recollections are mixed about when I discovered/suspected I was not all male or should I say, had some female hiding in my inner core. My first positive but fearful incident occurred at about age 12 or 13 when one day I discovered my nipples were suddenly hard and sore and had a pronounced bud of perhaps a quarter in diameter, which was tender to the touch. I was terrified – am I turning into a girl? After a week or so, all the sensations and buds receded and I continued life as normal.

At about age 16 several things happened. Almost every day I walked past an upscale dry cleaner who usually had several ball gowns on display in the window and I found myself admiring them.

My movie heroes were John Wayne’s portrayals in westerns and war movies, but occasionally, I saw a Technicolor musical. Often these starred glorious women like Debbie Reynolds, Lana Turner, and Elizabeth Taylor. I always was fascinated by the delicious-looking clothes and in particular remember one scene in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof where Elizabeth Taylor was wearing a body-clinging slip. I thought that was fantastic and began to envy women for their ability to wear the clothes that looked great and offered freedom of expression and mood in sharp contrast to the dull drab colors and styles of men’s attire.

My next shocker came at summer camp where everyone wore shorts. My first day there I put on the uniform and when I stepped out of the tent, I got some whistles and comments from several girl campers about my great gams, which were “too good for a boy.” Was I embarrassed!! But I cataloged the incident in my brain.

The next adventurer was self-induced. While baby-sitting for a relative, I discovered an evening gown – probably a bridesmaid’s – hanging in the hallway in a pink plastic bag. Carefully I raised the plastic and found a gorgeous green velvet floor-length gown with a princess neckline. I was drawn to trying it on. Quickly I took in into the spacious bathroom, took a very quick shower, then stepped into heaven and zipped up the back. My cotton boy socks filled out the bodice wonderfully. The off-the-shoulder style added a degree of daring and romance. It reminded me of Scarlet O’Hara in Gone With The Wind and her gown made from the living room draperies.

I was ecstatic, but after a few twirls in front of the full-length mirror, I was seized simultaneously with near euphoria and panic. Quickly, but very carefully I unzipped and let the green velvet cloud slowly slide to the floor, where after gracefully stepping out of its warm circle, I very gingerly hung it up, covered it in its plastic protective cocoon and returned this marvel of femininity to its original position.

I invite all Femulate readers to share their first crossdressing experience. Try to recall that moment the first time you tried on a woman’s garment and began the process of unveiling and exploring your feminine self. To entice you to share your first time story, I will give away a free copy of my e-book Fantasia Fair Diaries to all whose stories I use in Femulate.

Source: JustFab
Wearing JustFab.

Guys and Dolls
An all male cast performs Guys and Dolls at the UK Caldicott Prep School in 2015.


  1. I would have loved to be in that line-up at that age and worn those clothes offstage. BUT google Caldicott prep school and note how many of the teachers were accused and/or convicted in 2013 for child abuse in the 60's. Maybe they liked little girls sometimes? that I would have objected to.

  2. What a lovely story! Thank you for sharing!

  3. I fell in love with Full Slips at 3yrs old so it began!

  4. Dear Stana,

    As I've posted before, I love slips. I have at least a dozen full slips, and almost that many half slips. They are all made from the luscious, satiny nylon tricot material with lace trim. I have about 6 lace-trimmed camisoles that I wear with the half slips. You may wonder why I would wear a cami / half slip combination instead of a full slip. If I'm wearing a skirt or dress that ends above my knee, I may have to wear the half slip pulled higher on my torso so my slip won't show, and then the cami / half slip combo is useful. If I ever wore ladies slacks, of course I would wear a cami ... but I have NO DESIRE WHATSOEVER to wear even the most feminine ladies slacks! I just ADORE wearing a skirt, skirt suit, or dress. A gorgeous full slip can also act as lovely lounging lingerie. I have a couple delightful matched sets of slips and panties.



  5. Excelente puesta en escena, me gustaría conocer más experiencias de éste tipo. Gracias