Saturday, November 8, 2014

Fantasia Fair Final

Fantasia Fair: October 19 - 24, 2014


The girls dining at Ross's Grill, left to right, Andrea, Stana, Melissa, Natalie, Diana and Emeraude.

Fantasia Fair  has evolved.

In the past, it was reputed as being a getaway for female-to-male male-to-female crossdressers. Even six years ago when I attended my first Fanfair, that reputation preceded it.

The Fantasia Fair of the 2010s is different. Its attendees include female-to-male transgenders. And maybe it's just me... maybe I evolved since 2008, but it seems to me that a lot of the male-to-female attendees are in various stages of transition.

One thing that hasn't changed is that Provincetown is very diverse and accepting, so it affords a place where you can crossdress to your heart's content. But during Fantasia Fair it is impossible to pass no matter how passable you are because the civilians know what's up and read (right or wrong) every tall woman as "trans."


I wrote here that during the "Walking Tour of Historic Provincetown," our guide claimed that the B&B where I stayed during the Fair, Chicago House, was the birthplace of the International Foundation for Gender Education (IFGE). After the tour, I asked around and some people disputed that claim, while others seemed to support it.

Lynda e-mailed me in support of the claim.

She wrote, "I sat with the organizers of the IFGE at the Chicago House as the discussion of the plans for the organization took place. Merrissa Sherrill Lynn led the discusion and I believe became the first head of the IFGE."


Here is a shout-out to the girls I hung out with throughout the week (in alphabetical order). You ladies all made my week special and I hope we can do it again someday.
  • Andrea, my Connecticut Outreach Society sister
  • Davina, my Chicago House sister from Brazil
  • Diana, my blogging sister from Connecticut
  • Emeraude, my Chicago House sister from California
  • Melissa, my Connecticut ham radio trans sister
  • Natalie, my Chicago House sister from Connecticut (thanks again for the stamps, Natalie!)
  • Also want to shout out to Sirena, a Connecticut expatriate. We kept passing like ships in the night in Cape Cod Bay throughout the week, but never found an opportunity to chat.
  • Also, Robin, another Connecticut sister, who fell ill during the week and missed the tale end of the Fair.
  • And Janie, my blogging sister from Canada. We met up way too briefly after one of the presentations during the week. I had not seen Janie since Fantasia Fair 2008 and it was great seeing her again. It was also nice to see that neither of us had changed one bit during the ensuing six years!


Source: Beyond Beyond
Wearing Krikor Jabotian.



A favorite photo from Fantasia Fair.
Taken by Luna Maria.


  1. Hi stana.,,,, don't you mean male to female?

    Best, Joanna

    1. Thank you for the correction, Joanna.

  2. Dear Stana, I've been reading your blog for quite some time but this is the first time I've seen you use your own picture as the "Femulator" image. Actually you should use more of your own pictures as you're a top notch femulator yourself.

  3. Aren't we all in some kind of transition, some process of growing, some struggle to bring out and integrate ourselves? I don't think you can commit to coming out of your closet, even if only for a week at FanFair, and not be in some process of transition.

    Every transperson struggles with the way to stay connected and responsible to their current network while also moving forward to reveal and integrate more of what they have been taught that they have to hide. It is the eternal struggle.

    Today, though, the notion of building emotion tight compartments bolstered with denial is much less popular and the idea of finding a way to integrate trans expression and family obligation is much more favoured. Good thing.

    As you have taken down your own compartment walls you have been able to see the connections, see the transitions that everyone faces. It's not about imitating females, it is about revealing our own trans heart in some way.

    Transition is life. Moving beyond binaries and walls lets us acknowledge that..

    1. Yes - I have transitioned beyond "femulating."

    2. The secret to all potent transgender expression isn't becoming an "expert femulator," a great mimic, but rather in revealing the feminine (or masculine) in ouur heart.

      It's great you have moved beyond your old rationalization of "femulation," the belief that trans expression is just a hobby that is only clothing deep. I hope you show that understanding in your writing.

  4. Stana, I must reciprocate with my own expression of gratitude to all my Chicago House sisters for helping enormously to make my week special, too.

    And regarding the comment by "unknown", above: it's a very good point that you have made, and it's one that I can identify with. You've expressed it better than I would have been able to. We all have our particular difficulties, myself included, and yes, taking down my compartment walls is a goal that I too want to reach.

    1. It was a pleasure meeting you, Davina!

  5. Hi, going to my first Fair in 2021 as a support to a dear friend were coming from the UK looking forward to the whole experience.

    1. I hope you have a wonderful time. If you have any questions about the Fair, I will be happy to try and answer them.