Stuff 118: Bigger Closet?

By J.J. Atwell

Have You Gone To A CD Convention?

Stana has postulated that participating in a CD convention is really just being in a larger closet. To paraphrase, the growth of a Femulator can be thought of as progressing in stages. She starts out literally in a closet as she surreptitiously tries on a borrowed piece of clothing. I suspect that many of us have been there. 

What’s next? Well that little taste of femininity drives us to go further. That one piece of clothing expands to a more complete outfit. But we are still in the closet or maybe the bedroom. Once we have the outfit, we find we need more Stuff. And a place to put it. So we start acquiring accessories, wigs, makeup, handbags, etc., which of course, means we need a bigger closet to hold everything. 

Where Do You Store Your Stuff?

At this stage, we are running into a problem if we are still not “out.” Where do you store your stuff so that no one will stumble across it accidentally? 

I’ve heard many readers describing how they conceal their secrets. Some pretty ingenious, others rather obvious. I’m fortunate enough that I have a closet for Jennifer’s clothing, along with a couple dresser draws for lingerie and a couple of under-bed storage bags for shoes. It’s not a problem if they get noticed as I’m out to those who are important. 

Getting Back To It

I started out talking about conventions, but seem to have veered off into a different direction. That happens to me a lot. I count that as one of my creative talents as it allows my mind to view things in different lights. Or places, if you will. 

So once I had acquired all my femme stuff it wasn’t enough to just wear it in the closet. Or the bedroom. Or even the house. No, I needed to get out of the house. That lead to a larger “closet” as I started going to CD group meetings. At the start, these were in a private location so the only exposure to the real world was driving to/from the venue. A larger closet, with other CDs for company, but still not really out. 

It turns out this was a very significant step. Once you start associating with others, you learn more about improving your femme presentation. You see how others do it and you can have conversations about what they learned. That eventually leads to the next step, going out in public. As part of a “Girls’ Night Out” we can occupy a bigger space, albeit a space that has been carefully vetted as being safe. So, still a closet. 

CD Conventions

Recently, the annual Keystone Convention was held in Harrisburg Pennsylvania. This is a big event in the CD world. There are other similar conventions for CDs around the country. These wind up being much larger closets, encompassing an entire convention center. Even the annual gathering in Provincetown, where the CDs essentially have the run of the town, we are still out in safe environs. No longer in our little closet. Our home. Our meeting hall. 

I’ve never been to one of these conventions, but it’s on my wish list. I have had the opportunity to talk to several who did go to one and what they describe sounds really interesting. Imagine being your femme self for days at a time. I think that’s the size closet that JJ will try next. It’s important for us to push our boundaries and not let our lives stagnate. 

I’ll Be Back

The picture at the top of this page was generated by ChatGPT when I asked for “an outfit that complements my face, hair, proportions, and overall vibe. Keep the pose, expression, lighting, and identity unchanged. Ensure the new outfit feels natural, flattering, and well-styled.” I like the result.

As always, comments are welcome here on the blog or by email to Jenn6nov at-sign gmail dot com. JJ is always looking for more stuff, so if there is something you would like to read about, please let me know!

Wearing Bebe

Libor Landa femulating in the Czech film Kamenak.
Click here to view this film on YouTube.