Monday, December 24, 2007

the holidays

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, I will be busy visiting friends and relatives. I will be doing so in boy mode, but I wish I could make one visit dressed to kill en femme.

All my in-laws know about my crossdressing. It is a long story, but I was outed by my wife's cousin, who we had entrusted with my secret. My in-laws have had long discussions amongst themselves about my crossdressing, but they never mention it to my face. The family rat, my brother-in-law, even convinced my mother-in-law, to write my wife out of her will because I am "unstable." And yadda, yadda, yadda.

As a result, I have minimum contact with my in-laws, but my wife is forgiving to a fault, no matter how they have abused and mistreated her throughout her life, and she bought them all Christmas gifts.

So, Christmas morning, I will accompany my wife to my mother-in-law's home so she can exchange the gifts. I am just going along as bodyguard and will refuse any gifts that they may try to foist on me. (I don't expect any gifts because my wife has forewarned them that I won't accept any, but you never know with these people.)

I'd love to show up at my mother-in-law's tomorrow in my girliest Christmas finery. It is not that I don't have the guts to do it, but I won't do it in deference to my wife. But I can dream, can't I?

I wanted to close on a positive note: Tyra Banks. I have become infatuated with this woman and she is near the top of my list of women to emulate. So, I went to Google to search for a nice photo of Tyra to accompany this blog entry and I learn that Tyra gave limp McDonald's cheeseburgers to her staff as Christmas gifts!

Tyra just fell off my list of women to emulate, so I guess I have no good news this Christmas! But, Happy Holidays anyway!


  1. Staci,
    This is awful! it's the 'worst case scenario'! You seem to put up with it given the circumstances...
    Their supposedly nasty gossip undermines your status in the family, and only one-sidedly supports your wife, making her look like a 'victim'. But there are two sides.
    I told my younger sister years agao that i crossdress... only once, and neveer again. She never asked me about it. But the TS term came up once in a family situtation by my other sister, so I don't think they surmise anything more. My wife is supportive, caring, but demanding on the CD issue. (She wants a healthy balance with the male side).
    I wish we did have the freedom to dress in such family situations, to express our femme side. Bit it takes education and a deeper sense of the masc. and fem. for family members to understand, not to condemn out of ignnorance.

  2. The visit with the in-laws was very subdued until the family rat phoned and I overheard him use an expletive to describe me. With that, we left and I plan never to return.